Thursday, April 27, 2006
im feeling sad coz no one understands.
explaining just made me feel like a loser.
why is it that you can be such a fake ugly person.
why is it that it is so easy to see the true human nature.
why is it that life is just not as simple.
and i have no one to talk to.
and it sucks to be wrongly accused,
for what i had not done.
beautiful faces which i had loved,
had all turned into ghostly figures lingering in my mind.
people are scary.
and the things they would do to acheive what they want,
even scarier.
im losing faith.
im crying.
but whats the use
when it all amounts to nothing?
tears mean nothing.
losers cry.
i don't want to lose.
but what can i do?
9:58 PM
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
a sudden surge of PEKCHE-ness overwhelms me.
i need to SCREAMMMMMMMM!!!
RAHHHHrHH!
too much drama in school landed me in a mode of depression.haiz.
i still thinks drama is so much nicer than reality.i mean,in drama,everything is under your control.but in life,things are not going to proceed the way you wanted them to,coz life simply does not work that way.No matter how much preaching of your- future- lies- in- your- hand- kinda stuffs,many a times,people in life just faces so much adversities and challenges.Thats when things get tough and you really need a shoulder to lie on.
i guess somehow or another,people ard me,esp my clsmates have been feeling a tremendous amount of stress and anxiety because of the uncertainty and discouragement we always face from our schoolwork.As jc life gets tough,do remember to continue showering care and concern for the people around us!Spread the love peeps!=D
KBOX TMR!:D
11:01 PM
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
good friday's outing was good!:)
the main highlights of the day was actually our more-than-one-hour camwhoring session outside yoshinoya at ps.simple but fun!took loads of funky pictures with my ct mates.i really really luv 'em!:)
the vodka session was nice too.but i was feeling abit tired after tt.i wonder whether it was the vodka or tt i was really tired.
in any case.thanks ct0607 for making my day!more outings to come huh?:)
7:00 PM
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
im loving econs because mr nandwani is really interesting! Even though its rather hard to analyse what the lecturers are getting at sometimes,mr nandwani always makes things so much easier in an entertaining way somemore!the only thing which im worried about is that the entertainment can sometimes get TOO entertaining.hahas.nvm if you don't get it:P
LEP is getting harder i guess.the compo and compre can get very unmanageable from the hwks tt we have gotten this week.well..passion always drives motivation:)no worries.
math and chem is getting abit out of control temporarily,i hope.jiayou jiayou sam!you've always known that jc is not easy.
in the meantime,amidst my hectic sch timetable,im currently involved in the rehearsals for the translation competition this upcoming sat.Im in charge of round 3 whereby the contestants wld have to translate whatever me and benjamin says in a skit from mandarin to english and vice versa. Its pretty fun :)
and byg post production celebration is on this coming fri!YAY :)
will head down to amk after the translation comp on sat to helpout at Forum Theatre too!For those who are interested in drama,don't miss the free drama production which Forum theatre is going to put up at amk central this sat,730pm! Trust me that the show is going to be really good!
:)
btw..The folks are going to korea next wed WITHOUT me!Well..actually they had wanted me to tag along as well but i rejected the idea,simply because i didn't want to skip tutorials(im serious).but nvm!i trust tt they won't come back empty handed.hehe
smile and the world will smile with you.cheer up dude :)
11:36 PM
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Saturday, April 01, 2006
有一個年輕人喜歡上了在便利商店打工的女孩,
他每天都會到女孩工作的店裡面買一包香煙,
漸漸的兩人開始互相熟悉,當女孩工作感到無聊乏味的時候,年輕人就會出現,
他會陪女孩說說話 ,或是逗女孩開心.女孩也知道年輕人似乎喜歡上自己了,可是自己已經有很要好的男友.
有商店夾公仔機...女孩很喜歡裡面的娃娃,年輕人知道以後,當天他終於對她表白,希望女孩能接受他,不知如何是好的女孩,只能殘忍的告訴年輕人,她和他是不可能的,因為她已經有深愛的男友了,
年輕人聽了之後默然的點點頭,他不死心的問女孩,自己真的沒有機會了嗎?
善良的女孩不忍心....於是她手指著娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃說,除非你夾滿100個娃娃,而且一天只能夾一個.
原來女孩希望用時間來沖淡年輕人對自己的感情 ,她心想,一天夾1個娃娃, 最快也要三個多月之後才有100個,
而且年輕人應該不會真的有耐心夾滿100個娃娃吧這三個月的時間,她會盡量與男孩保持距離,
年輕人還是每天到商店來,可是女孩開始變得冷淡,他總是試著聊一些女孩有興趣的話題,不過女孩依然愛理不理.
因為她知道唯有這樣做,才不會讓年輕人越陷越深.
年輕人或許是感覺到女孩的用意,於是他每天夾娃娃,有時運氣好夾一兩次就中了,有時運氣差,零用錢花光了也夾不到,只好跟朋友借錢繼續夾,一直到夾中為止.
无論花多少錢花多少時間,他每天一定會夾一個娃娃,只是他無法與女孩分享夾到娃娃的喜悅,因為他知道女孩有意要避開他,為了怕引響到女孩的情緒,他只能在櫥窗外頭微笑的對女孩點點頭.好幾次,看到年輕人因為夾到娃娃興高采烈的樣子,女孩都想要衝出去對他說,我是騙你的,你不要再夾了,就算你真的夾到100個娃娃,我跟你也是不可能的!
但是一想到年輕人希望破滅的樣子,女孩就於心不忍,她只能不斷猶豫.就這樣1 天,2天,3天..,年輕人的娃娃數量不斷的累積,而女孩刻意與年輕人保持距離的結果,則是讓自己在工作的時後更顯孤單.
不知道是哪一天,女孩子因為在外地工作的男友無法回來陪她過18歲的生日,與男友吵了一架,而那天年輕人仍一如往常的來到便利商店,不同的是那天年輕人竟走進了店裡,
他對女孩說,可不可以破例讓他在今天夾兩個娃娃回去,可是因為和男友吵架而心情不佳的女孩,很生氣的當場拒絕了他.就這樣,年輕人走到娃娃機旁,默默的夾了一個娃娃回去,在年輕人離開的時後,他對櫥窗裡的女孩看了一眼.
隔天以後,年輕人再也沒來夾娃娃了.剛開始女孩雖然覺得奇怪,但是仍然慶幸自己終於放下了心中的大石頭.
可是漸漸的,她突然覺得不習慣,因為那個每天都會為了她來夾娃娃的熟悉背影,好像空氣一樣就消失不見了,
這時女孩才發現到,原來她心中的失落感遠遠超過年輕人所帶給她的負擔.只是一切都...女孩開始想念以前年輕人來店裡陪她聊天的點點滴滴.哪怕他只是站在櫥窗外頭沉默不語的夾娃娃,似乎都會帶給她莫名的安全感.
所以女孩每天上班時,總是不斷的抬頭張望,那個熟悉的身影來了嗎?可惜的是,年輕人始終沒出現, 只剩下那台沒人使用的娃娃機.有一天,女孩下班後,在店門口遇到了以前常和年輕人一起來的朋友,她焦急的問他年輕人的下落,可是年輕人的朋友則是一臉黯然,
他帶女孩來到年輕人的家,當他開啟年輕人的房間的門時,映入女孩眼簾的是一群娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃,以及躺在床上動也不動的年輕人.
原來年輕人的脊椎有病,必須要開刀才能保住生命,可是開刀有一半的機率會失敗而導致全身癱瘓,年輕人在開刀的前一天晚上,也就是女孩和男友大吵一架的那天,希望女孩給他機會夾2個娃娃,因為他已經累積有98個了,
然而卻遭到女孩的回絕,隔天之後年輕人手術不幸失敗變成植物人,年輕人的母親拿了一封信給女孩,那是年輕人在手術之前寫好的:其實我早就知道,就算夾到了100個娃娃,妳也不可能會喜歡我,我之所以這麼做並不是故意要造成妳的困擾,而是希望在我有限的時間裡,證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人,這樣就足夠了,如果妳看到了這封信,那表示我再也無法為你夾娃娃了,對不起,或許我的努力還不夠吧,沒能夾到100個娃娃親手送給你..
女孩看著床邊的99個絨毛娃娃,那是99顆無法承受的真心,眼眶裡的淚水早已決堤而出...隔天女孩來到年輕人的家,她將第100個絨毛娃娃放到年輕人的手中,
這時已經變成植物人的他.
1:45 PM
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