Saturday, October 22, 2005
its kinda sad when you can't live up to the expectations that others thrust upon you.
i guess。。。i'll move on=)
“悄悄的我走了 正如我悄悄的来
我挥一挥衣袖 不带走一片云彩”
beautiful sentence,isn't it?=)
4:51 PM
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
前天到了南洋初级学院的开放日。想起当初自己是如何挖苦自己的哥哥，说他是因为成绩烂才会来到这所初院，内心就充满了无限的愧疚。我想，南洋将会是我前三个月的安栖之所吧。
学校的外观实在很不错。由于才刚装修不久，设备看起来都很新，很齐全。学校也比我想象中大很多，应该是比st nicks大吧。经过了一些lep讲解员的解释后，对lep产生了更深的认识。在兴趣激增的同时，或许也有那么一丝丝的忧郁吧，毕竟lep可不是一般学生能够掌握的，而自己对于唐诗，宋词和文言文又有多大的兴趣呢？若为了它而放弃了其他的初级学院，最后却发现自己根本无法胜任，我又是否会后悔万分呢？
后悔。在学业上后悔，在爱情中后悔，对人生感到后悔。后悔是对自己的错误的一种认知。若一个人重来都没有后悔，或许他根本对自己的错误视若无睹，不然，他就是一个圣人了。
还记得小时候在《还珠格格》的连续剧里，听到紫薇的母亲说道：“我感谢上天赐个我一个可怨，可怒，可恨的人”她指的是剧中的皇上，年轻时微服出巡和他结下了一段情缘。对于那一段话，我想我是充满认同的。后悔，是成长的洗礼，是懂事前的进行曲。
人生或许是充满后悔的。可是重要的是，要从后悔中重拾信心，继续走下去。
<<我重来不会说：“如果时间能够重来”这一种话。因为时间如果可以重来，这一切就不会那么珍贵。>>
Wells, moderation will come in next week. All the best to every one in sn=) including myself of course=D
Things have been going on well..i am coping fine and trying to cope as well. Some troubles have always been up in my mind,but I guess I’ll shake off them really soon,I hope. Surprisingly,I am actually looking forward to o’s,looking forward to college life and looking forward to the day of liberation. Ironically, it also signifies very deeply in my heart that some things will come to an end very soon also. Well, I guess everyone have to move on in life. I thank God for all that came this year, because in a way I actually find myself maturing quite a lot, though many of my friends will still beg to differ that sam is actually a mature person.HAH.but I guess I really did.
Yay.im just trying to be bilingual=X
8:51 PM
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Saturday, October 08, 2005
预考的成绩已出炉了。
我相信，人之初，性本善。可是，一旦一件事将牵连到一个人的未来时，又有多少人能够秉持着这自己的道德准准则呢？
我发现自己的丑陋，人类的丑陋，社会的冷酷。
当我发现其他的同学的成绩比起我的来的更差时，我竟发现自己的嘴角微微的上扬，因为那将意味老师或许会把分数增加，以便让同学们考取更优异的成绩。我竟发现自己希望能有多一些同学在某科目中考取低分，以便增加老师们加分的可能性。
我没对任何人做出了任何伤害。在社会的眼力，我根本不是一个罪人。可是我却被自己自私自利的想法给镇住了。
或许大家也听过这句活吧？
“受过越高教育的人就越没有人情味”
若我将成长成一位成功人士，但在人生的路途中，却无时无刻为了自己的利益而对他人萌起了坏念头，我想我会过得很不快乐。
或许，大家会对我的印象大打折扣吧。可是，请扪心自问，这样的念头从来没闪过脑袋吗？
~黑夜如果不黑暗，我们又有什么向往？~
2:36 PM
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Monday, October 03, 2005
i hate it when those people complained and cry over their A2 when i have to simply exclaim in awe and ponder innocently how did they even get a 2.
i hate it when those people are lamenting how they are goin to do badly for their papers when at the next minute,they're shouting across the drama studio with the results of their "badly done" papers.
STOPP IT!don't you guy thinks that u all are stupid bloody fatty assholes?
shucks.i need anger management courses.
fine.i din work hard for prelims.so shldn't i at least be happy tt i
still haven't flunk any of my papers?
oh wells.
im am so going to do well for my o's.i promise mom today-sorta.well,anyway,sam is going to do well k..she is so going to do well..i hope.
urgh.i try to be more demure nxt time=)
11:59 PM
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